I am the source of your pain that I can’t stand to see
I am the only reason we can no longer be
I am our worst enemy, trying to be a friend
I am the reason we are broken
yet again
she has done the same and i still love her
she could have done it again and i wouldnt change
but when i did it
selfishly and stupidly did it
she wouldnt stay
i dont believe it to be a reflection of her
but of me
i am not worth it
i am not good enough
i am a mistake
to her
to myself
to everyone
i am a mistake
even if, someday, i do get over her
i can never get over myself
my decisions will lead me to the same point time and time again
Jabez
Like a FOOL I threw away what I needed most. What I really loved. But maybe it was for the better. Her better. I am like Jabez at birth, I only cause pain. She is better off without me, she deserves someone who isn’t a mistake. Someone who doesn’t make these choices that hurt both. Everyone is better off without me, I think I’ve hurt everyone I know. Never once have I meant it.